What I would do If I did not give a damn (or if i loved myself fully)

I was reminded today, reading something wise, how important it is to listen less to the opinions of others.

I felt guilty just *typing* that. I suppose that's how much I do take on other peoples opinions, and let them shape my own feelings about *things* (myself mainly, if I'm honest).

SO
I thought I would let it all hang out, and tell the world about all the things I *might* do if i sensibly managed, for just a slice of a moment, to CARE NOT about what anyone else may think (of me).

Liberation might ensue...so here goes. I'm going to try for a top ten.

1. Dye my hair bright PINK...yes, really.
    Like this LuciousLady here:

          Photograph by The incredible Rosie Parsons @ www.Rosieparsons.com

2. Get Tattoos. All over my bod.
    Swans, swallows, hearts, arrows, Ma, Pa, Ol, Jinks, doves, veils, seams running up the back of my      legs, and garters and ruffles and loads of my own illustrations in all kinds of colours. CRAZY.

3. Eat Raw, all the time, and stick my tongue out at anyone who told me I had a problem.

4. OR do the exact opposite and eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted and still stuck my tongue       out (after I had finished my mouthful).

5. Ran a cafe cum gallery cum creative space.

6. Get my nose pierced, and get a nose job, and get a boob job. Or just stop caring.

7. Had at least 3 dogs, who come with me wherever I go.  So the cafe would have to be in Paris then I    suppose. Meet Sammi, Pearl and Peony...

                                                             Sammi the Springer Spaniel

                                                                    Pearl The Pug

                                                  Peony ( pea for short) the French Bulldog


...S i g h

Imagine all those little loves in your bed at night. I would never, ever, ever stop smiling.

8. Sing louder, all the time, not worrying who can hear, or if I sound like a hound on heat. (no offence to hounds).

9. Say out loud when I'm not happy about something (this is something I am *definitely* getting better at (ask my boyfriend) but I still find it hard with other people at times.

10. Make all the words come out of my mouth that I am thinking without editing them first.

11. Turn off my phone whenever I want when I don't want to talk/text/anything. The phone and I do not get on, and not feel guilty about doing so.

phew. It went to legs 11!

Well. I am going to go and ruminate on those things and might think about actually putting some into practise. Does it all come down to lots of self love & self respect? Probably, yes...so I  better start planting some seeds.



x!